Hello readers!!! How are we today? There is so much to talk about that I am just going to get straight into it 🙂
As I said in my first post this year, Happy New Year, I felt like I had a tough year. I had one of my best friends move away, people left and others came, and I started university for the time ever. This tied with the fact that just over a year and a third ago, I stopped eating meat and now only eat seafood and egg (on particular days, it is an Indian thing), I decided to have a prayer for my birthday this year. I honestly feel so lost and I don’t know what this year holds for me. I have plans but it all depends on Bhagwan (Hindi for god). So I am starting off this year with Bhagwan and I hope that I accomplish all my plans and more. So I turned 19. Yayy!! This is not a massive milestone, so that was another reason to have a prayer with family. With my close friends, I had dinner with close friends. No cake, no party, just time with close ones. Ever since we moved into our new house, so about 5 years ago, we have been meaning to do a 3-day prayer. However, we never really got the chance to do it. I took this opportunity for us to have a 3-day Prayer. My birthday fell on a Monday so I wanted to have a prayer dedicated to Shiva; making it a 4-day prayer. Dad also wanted to have a Sai Baba prayer. Hence the 5-day prayer.
The day after my birthday, I had an awesome birthday dinner with my friends. My friends are so amazing and I love them all so much. They are have been there when I needed them most and have never let me down. So this dinner was an amazing mood booster and had made me feel way better about my birthday blues. There was heaps of laughter and the good times were rolling.
Birthdays are supposed to be happy occasions where celebrations, being spoiled, and positive reflection are all part of the special day. However, for some people, this may not be the case. They may feel a sense of dread every year their birthday approaches. For these individuals, the idea of enjoying a birthday occasion are diminished because they feel depressed, stressed, and anxious instead of feeling excited and positive about the day. I was exactly like that this year. I have always had birthdays that I wanted. I have always had parties with my friends and family coming. I never had a bad experience with my birthday. I have always received more the love than I ever deserve. I just felt numb in the name for my birthday. I didn’t want anything except the prayers. I didn’t want to cut a cake but my sister still made one. I tried to fake it, and dress all up for the 1st and 2nd day but then 3rd, 4th and 5th days I gave up. You can’t fake it till you make it because you are more important than the social norm. I guess this is just another side effect turning into an introvert; which I am not ready to talk about yet .
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